Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Out of Nowhere

It's been a while.
I stopped blogging because the pain became less intense.
I removed my posts because the adversary demanded it and I am accustomed to giving in.

And then the intensity returned.

Out of nowhere.
Great brand new job.
Children thriving at school.
Heartbreak long forgotten.

Out of nowhere.
Shame over past mistakes.
Regret over what never was.
Pain over intense unspeakable loss.

Out of nowhere.
Sobbing into dry hands.
Questioning unto oblivion.
Doubting as to purpose.

Out of nowhere.
Alone.
Forgotten.
Miserable.

With nobody to blame but myself.

4 comments:

  1. You're not alone. Just need to open your eyes, wipe away the tears and look around. I know you're scared and everything seems hopeless. You are an amazing woman to be around, you are beautiful, smart, funny and caring.

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  2. You're not alone. Just need to open your eyes, wipe away the tears and look around. I know you're scared and everything seems hopeless. You are an amazing woman to be around, you are beautiful, smart, funny and caring.

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  3. Thank you. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel even though everyone swears that it's there.

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  4. Totally agree your a great person and you're kids love you so much always looked at you a supermom... Your amazing

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